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Circle of Life (+ Process Video) by JoJoesArt Circle of Life (+ Process Video) :iconjojoesart:JoJoesArt 5,757 165 Daily Paint 1471. Toucannoli by Cryptid-Creations Daily Paint 1471. Toucannoli :iconcryptid-creations:Cryptid-Creations 3,078 71 WIP: Leap by PMSingTiger WIP: Leap :iconpmsingtiger:PMSingTiger 21 12 To carry the seeds of death within me by SeparateFromTheHead To carry the seeds of death within me :iconseparatefromthehead:SeparateFromTheHead 285 14 Applepie by Nightsrunner Applepie :iconnightsrunner:Nightsrunner 155 36 Julehjerte by Zoubstance Julehjerte :iconzoubstance:Zoubstance 23 7 Arbor Vitae by Zoubstance Arbor Vitae :iconzoubstance:Zoubstance 76 19
iii. on making peace with my brother
while i was born to be beheld by behemoth machines, you were cast into the shadow of the baby unborn, the supposed sister that never was. the little brother born after the storm, i held you close and caught myself tasting undying devotion for the first time.
i sought so sincerely to shield you from the unseaming of our mother, the taste of death as our father slipped past in your 6-year-old arms, heart hollowed out with the scraping of the ambulance on the front curb. i wanted in vain to keep you in your child's heart, denied your existence to the tormentors and torturers that would seek you if they could hear that steady beat.
i owe you acres of apologies, in my anger at my failure to find you safety, i lashed with lascivious tongue and languishing limbs at you. you understood the pain as ours, and for that, i rejected you.
as age grew into wisdom, i found you always at departures, darting on to the depths of something daring. i gazed on as you grew past my self and found your appetit
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ii. on making peace with my body
i thought i loved my bones best, the bare spaces between breaths beautified me beyond the slip of skin i wore. i wanted to keep myself translucent, trepid and torn. i pencilled myself a skeleton over fragile wrists and the wrath of my waistline. i focussed on the frailty of figures, diagrams and detailed dossiers of days that stretched seven long years.
i fed myself the addiction of emptiness.
i still cannot recall if i gave my body to him or if he stole it. sometimes, the semblance of remembrance reminds me i do not care to uncover what lies beneath. alas, i have learned it is not easier to endure the echo no matter which way the waves travel.
there are days, now, with knees known to fail and a heart that hammers a hint too hasty that i ache for the touch of nothing. it is then, that i pick my bones up from the earth and plant them into a skeleton, now tall with cognizance beyond the scaffolding and skin. i have learned of full breath and freedom from foreign fingers, finding solace i
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i. on making peace with my mother
i. on making peace with my mother
i feel as though i must first apologize for how i entered; half-breath and whole-fisted, twisted and silent. a bundle of burdens taken away on steel wings. oh, how you worried, writhed and wept. went to a world of neon cages and man-made suns to see the thing you had created, kept company by contraptions and doubt. to see the the fruits of your labour laid out, signing papers and putting your flesh and blood in the slick hands of strangers. you ate uncertainty for breakfast and anguish for lunch.
i spent the early years of my career commanding questions, marching them from my belly to my tongue, appetite unconquered.  a dominating soul, five years old and ancient to my peers all my answers were demanded from you. you caught them fearlessly, fighting to find if i could find an equilibrium in the seesaw motion of my madness. we both realized i would not.
alas, you cannot compete with the dead parent. the immortal morality of the man made into memory
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CalyArt Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks so much for the watch <33
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